I find myself wearing all the jewelry I have, in strange combinations and changed repeatedly throughout the day and night. Rings, earrings, necklaces, bracelets. They are all presents from family and friends and my mate. I have been very blessed with their riches. They are my real jewels, these people with whom I have kinship.
Other medicines I have been using include
Hot chocolate
Chai tea with milk
Buttermilk biscuits
Soup
Hot baths with Epsom salts and herbs
Smelling lots of lavender, I crave the flowers and have surrounded myself with sachets
Also smelling peppermint
Cleaning the house as best I can, external harmony makes me feel better
Petting the dog and cats
Music in small doses
Lying still for brief moments and imagining a better future in which I am not held hostage by pain
Imaging I am on the treatment table and Olympia is working on me
Looking at art
Sticking stickers on things
Using up things around the house and not saving or hoarding anything, nothing is for “later”
Next up is to try to do some art project and to get some valerian root tincture.
Maybe to wear more make up, thick-like paint, to paint myself over.
And hope to do some art therapy. For the last 45 minutes I was pouring paint with goddesses that night, I was in that place where I did not feel my head. This is the goal. Go somewhere else, get so deeply into something the brain forgets itself.
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